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Calliope Stephana Winthrop
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| Musings... [Real journal entry, locked to you unless we discuss otherwise] |
[Jul. 28th, 2003|11:26 am] |
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I know that one should not live life with what ifs... but I can't help pondering sometimes... If she were still alive, would he be with me? I see in his eyes how much he loves her when something brings a memory of her to mind. If she were still here and he had to choose, who would it be? I wasn't enough for Marid, just a number... one among many. Would I be good enough this time around or would I still not be worthy? Sarmade tells me of the old days when the sultans and caliphs had harems of wives and concubines. Perhaps this is all I was ever meant to be... never first in the heart of anyone, only able to fulfill a segment of another's need for love even if mine is completed fully by just one person. |
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| *sneers* Because that's what friends are for... |
[Jul. 11th, 2003|12:12 am] |
How wonderful that all the people I considered my friends and loved ones see fit to betray me. Mom's in trouble. She's been acting oddly lately, her accent gone, vacant expression a lot, dreamy and wistfully sad... like she's forgetting herself again. Enter slap in the face #1: Ari and Ihsan know about this and chose not to tell me at all. (I managed to find out from Lucas) In the name of Lady Fate, she's my mother!! If it's anyone's business, it's mine. And now the 'et tu, Brute?' shot - Lucas and Jimmy were planning on going looking for her... without me. Thank you all for thinking I'm grossly incompetent, incapable of even handling information, too much of a liability to take along, etc. Have fun keeping all your little secrets from me. I'm sure Sarmade, Bahir, and I will have a lovely time looking for her on our own.
Edit: Why did I go back to check on Ari? Perhaps it was the look that said I'd cut her heart out and handed it to her. She told me the rest, Mom's vision of mine and Jimmy's abductions and deaths, and made me promise not to go. But don't for one second think this means any of you are forgiven...
Edit: Lucas is forgiven and Ari is forgiven. I've yet to see valid reason for the others... |
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| oc: surprise party |
[Jun. 26th, 2003|03:28 pm] |
Ok. So Calli's suprise party this weekend. I'm going home to KY and won't be online all day long (gasp). So how about we nail down a definite time to start. Let me know which times are definitely out and we'll make arrangements from there.
Anne |
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| Challenge for Lucas |
[Jun. 25th, 2003|12:25 am] |
So I'm learning something new. Below is a message for Lucas. Who thinks he can figure it out?
أحبّك |
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| The Proud Parents of... |
[Jun. 15th, 2003|09:27 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Aqua - Good Guys | ] |
As part of our two month anniversary yesterday, Lucas and I went out and adopted a kitten together. Now Roxanne has a wonderful new playmate. We picked out a wonderful jet black kitten. He compliments Roxy's snow white fur beautifully. We weren't sure what to name him for a while, but Jerem helped me with a 'kitten saining' today in the glade. Our new kitten's name is...
Shadow (full name, Chinabane the Shelflord)
Jerem also found out Roxy's true name too. She's Yarntosser the Entangled. :)
And on a totally unrelated note, about the virtual model post. Lucas, don't think I didn't notice that you took my model to the weddingchannel site and saved wedding gowns :) Got marriage on your mind, darling? |
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| A virtual me |
[Jun. 14th, 2003|01:44 pm] |
So I was putzing around online and found the greatest website.
http://www.myvirtualmodel.com
It's really neat. You can make an online version of yourself to use at some clothing stores. The model's not perfect. My hair is too short and the facial features aren't quite right, but for the few questions they ask you, it's pretty good. So, go to the site, log in as
User name: Calli_Winthrop
Password: password
and go shopping with me! If you find any interesting outfits, let me know and I might run out and buy them. :)
If anyone else makes a virtual model let me know so I can go see yours. |
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| A Dangerous Game (Diary entry. Unless told otherwise, your PC does not know about this IC) |
[Jun. 13th, 2003|09:03 pm] |
Finally a break from work. After helping Dismas with the training of her troupes, attending the peaces talks between the Kingdoms of Apples and Rolling Hills, getting ready to patrol the borderlands, and going with Lucas to check in on things with Queen Ealasaid, a mini vacation seemed most inviting... It turned out to be anything but...
Lucas, Devi, and I stepped off the trod, back into the now familiar ally way in Philadelphia. We wandered around the streets of the city a bit. The soft notes of a lute being played drifted from the Community Theater.
"Odd, that building should be closed at this hour..."
We entered the dimly lit theater to investigate, the stagnant air thick around us, vibrating slightly with the notes of the tune. As my eyes adjusted to the poor lighting conditions, I made out a form sitting on the steps playing the lute. Long auburn hair spilled over her shoulders. Glamour shown from her, marking her as one of the Fae. As we walked in however, she packed up her things and left.
"That's strangely antisocial. She seemed familiar though. Perhaps I've seen her in the glade before. Why isn't a name coming to mind. What the..?"
Suddenly the lights in the theater darkened completely. A spotlight broke the darkness, a beacon of brilliance settling on the black velvet curtains on the stage. A drum roll sounded as if from nowhere, notes heavy in the stagnant air. Slowly the curtains were drawn up, the spotlight coming to rest on a small burlap sack.
I heard the 'thuwmp' of my sandals against my heels as my curiosity drew me forward to the stage.
"Bad idea. Strange bag in a building that should be closed." "Oh just a little peek won't hurt..." "And who controlled the lights and curtain? Aren't you concerned about who might be here?" "But the sack is a mystery. It'll only take a second to look..."
My conscious warred in my head, curiosity eventually winning out over rationale and drawing me onto the stage. Standing in front of the sack, I blocked the spotlight, batheing in a brilliant halo of white light. Lucas and Devi followed, soaking up the rays of aritifical light as well. Knitting my eyebrows together with curiosity, I knelt over the sack.
"What's that?"
I leaned over picking up a piece of parchment that rested atop the bag. The envelope had been sealed with red wax, a sticky film of it clinging to the pads of my fingers as I ran it across the seal.
"The crest of House Dougal... interesting. I wonder what it says..."
I slid my fingers under the wax, careful not to destroy the crest. Lucas leaned over my shoulder. I felt his eyes scanning the paper at the same time as mine, his curiosity as great as myown. Dark brown ink stained the creamy parchment. In sprawling angry words was written "THE OLD WAYS ARE DEAD, LET FREEDOM RING FORTH!" My voice, although at normal volume, echoed through the auditorium, repeating the words on the paper and disturbing the silence. My voice lilted upward at the end of the sentence, ending it in a question instead of an exclamation as intended.
"I wonder what it means... perhaps what's in the sack will tell us"
Folding the parchment carefully and putting it back into the envelope, I leaned over and carefully undid the bindings keeping the sack closed. Peering inside, a gruesome visage met my eyes. A head. Ripples of glamour played over it's ghastly countenance. The pointed ears and strangely alien beauty, still present even in death, marked it as a Sidhe. A shriek ripped through the palpable silence hanging in the air. It took a moment for me to realize it had ripped from my own throat.
Must get away. Death. Murder. Must leave here NOW!!
The thoughts screamed in my head as I back pedalled as quickly as I could. Falling over in my haste, I landed with an umph on the stage floor. Kicking my feet and floundering my arm, I moved away from the monstrosity, sliding across the stage floor on my jean shorts. Suddenly I felt Lucas' arms around me. His presence sending the specters of terror fleeing into the shadows. Held at bay for the moment, they lurked in the corners of my mind awaiting an opportunity to strike again.
Breathe in... breathe out... create calm... don't think about it... breathe in... breathe out... Lucas is here, you're safe now...
Slowly I breathed in and out, trying to dispell my fear. The cloyingly sweet scent of blood filling the air and attacking my senses with each inhalation denied me the calm I sought. I squeezed my eyes closed to block out the gruesome image. The specter haunted me on the screen of my eyelids, however, its mouth stretching open in my mind's eye. Congealed saliva stretched into strings between its pallid lips as it called for justice. The phantasm created by my own mind shocked me back awake, and I witnessed everyone else's reaction to the little gift left for us to find. Whispering with Lucas, we decided it would be wise to check the bag throughly. As he he moved to do this the terrors lurking in the corners of my mind descended on me again. Suddenly, as the visions of evil were disintegrated by a radient light as another thought took dominance in my mind.
Who? Who left us this gruesome gift? Who could have done this heinous thing?
I pulled Devi close to me, away from the bag, and pondered this. Movement in the shadows of the theater disrupted these thoughts and i felt the icey fingers of fear slip around me. I squeezed Devi close to me and slid a little closer to Lucas.
They're back! It's your head in bag that will be found next. Yours, and Devi's, and Lucas'...
Every muscle in my body tensed as the figures approached. Pearing closely, I recognized Shayndel, clad in her usual white gown and gloves, accompanied by a stranger. Relief washed over me, and I slumped forward, holding Devi in a loose hug.
Not here to finish the job after all... Thank you, Lady Fate.
Spotting me, Shayndel came over. She introduced her companion as Rainain, her 'just friend' who Lucas and I had been teasing her about a lot. After quick introductions, I filled them in on the situation, showing them the note and warning them of the contents of the bag so that they would not have to accost their eyes with the actual image. Lucas returned to the group along with a Sluagh unknown to us who also seemed to have been drawn to the theater. The voice of paranoia spoke seducitvely to my conscience.
Who is he? Is he safe? Perhaps he had something to do with all this...
Nervous about the unknown person, I took comfort in so many of my friends being present. We discussed what to do about the situation. Who to take the matter to. What precautions to take ourselves. Suddenly Lucas withdrew a bit from the group as if struck with an idea. He walked back over to the bag, muttering under his breath. Glamour built up around him, surrounding him in shimmering silver miasma. The glamour pulsed into life at the completion of the Art and he seemed to converse with the dismembered head. My eyes darted to follow him, nervously following his every movement.
Be safe, love. Be safe. Conversing with the dead... what if they're angry... seeking revenge.. don't let them take it on you.
I breathed a sigh of relief as he walked safely back over to us. "Pure glamour ... can tell you all sorts of interesting things," Lucas whispered, looking at each of us in turn. "A ring was taken from the Count... deBurgundy ... the glamour surrounding his remains was, or maybe is, in that ring ... why is it still sticking around, still bonded with him? Find the ring ... and you have your killers." Lucas' eyes were almost black as he came back from conversing wit the dead spirit. Slowing they faded back to their normal indigo as he spoke.
Black... a color I've not seen his eyes before. What can it mean? Green is joy, grey is sorrow... black... probably not something good.
Absinthe badgered Devi to leave for home before Ailora grew worried. Bidding her adieu, the group pondered over the declaration for a moment. Plotting slyly between each other, Lucas and I suggested using the legendary Elegbara merit of managing to find our way to the right place at the right time to lead the expidition to the count's ring and his killers. Almost immediately upon making the decision, however, the spotlight suddenly came back on. It shown directly onto Rainain's brilliant silver armor, making him into a beacon. The music to Madonna's "Die Another Day" blared over the speakers, teasingly letting us know that someone held our fates in their hands.
I WARNED YOU ABOUT THE LIGHTS AND CURTAINS!! Now look what's happening... suppose the killers never left and are manning the lighting booth right now. You are all sitting targets... Following your curiosity has led you straight into a trap.
The rational part of my mind screamed, reminding me of the danger it sensed by my curiosity had chosen to ignore. Everyone scanned the theater nervously and took off in a mad rush to the lighting booth. Lucas and Rainain broke through the door and everyone poured through. Looking around, I noticed the girl from before, the one playing the lute, had re-entered the auditorium.
Could it be her? She was here before the bag was first placed on the stage. She could have done all the lighting, curtain, and sound effects... She's a potential danger... watch her.
Running full throtle into the lighting booth we found... nothing. A gold coin and a rose sat on the booth, more gifts from the killers, letting us know that they were in control, could easily have killed us, but were now letting us go. And now they even give us hints. So confident in their mental superiority that they believe leaving clues will not lead to their capture. My eyes were drawn to the rose, made as if from the very shadows itself. When the lute playing girl moved to touch it, the dark gray petals hiss angrily and the stem begins to wrap around her wrist. Jerking her hand away, the stem breaks and the shadows rose fades away. Rainin picked up the coin and examined it. "House Balor... Unseelie" The words left his lips dripping with disdain, loathing, and a hint of fear. Taking the coin in my own hand, I saw a coiled snake engraved on one side and house symbol unknown to me on the other.
Balor? Who are they? And why would they participate in the slaying of one of their own kith?
We finished investigating the lighting booth. Rainain and Del left with the coin and the severed head, taking the head to one of the nobles in the area to notify them of the crime. Lucas and I left with the note with the crest of House Dougal. The lute playing girl and Kam, the sluagh, departed their own ways. We talked and planned to meet again soon to come up with a course of action. My mind raced a mile a minute on the journey home.
The killers are playing a game with you. You all just got tagged in. It's your turn. Are you up for the challenge? .... or will you falter and fail, allowing the game to continue by your head being found in a bag? |
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| Calliope and the Djinni |
[May. 29th, 2003|12:50 pm] |
Last night in the glade Theodora went through some sort of transformation. Her elegant, noble beauty shifted and mutated into... something else. I was reminded of the scene from Snow White where the Queen shifts into the Hag. I recoiled from the sight, fearful at her transformation. She kept on goading me about being afraid. I really was... I think Sarmade can sense my strong emotions due to her bond to me. In any case, she appearred in the glade.
Relief flooded over me when Sarmade first showed up. She marched in front of me, blocking me from Theodora's transformed self and glaring at the ancient crone. But then she noticed Shayndel... Shayndel had moved between Theodora and I also, trying to protect me. Sarmade's swirling smoke had appeared right in front of me, placing her near Shayndel. Coming to solid form, Saramde shuddered slightly at her proximity to Shayndel. She immediately moved me back, yelling something in Arabic. I haven't learned enough yet to know what she meant. The 'wicked queen' did though and they talked for a bit before Sarmade dragged me off into the woods.
Out in the woods I got a thorough lecture about the Itiyere, why I shouldn't associate with them, an overview of their crimes against the Elegbara, and a firm demand that I not associate with Shayndel ever again. Sarmade didn't mention why Shayndel was worse than any other Sidhe... but I suspect it's got something to do with her curse. I hadn't told Sarmade that Shayndel and I were friends... After the last rendition of 'firehands', I decided not to mention any of my Sidhe friends to her.
I remember my voice shaking, quivering nervously in the back of my throat and then finally ripping free, interrupting her rant. "She's my friend! I'll see her if I want to." I remember feeling flames burning in my eyes and the look of amazement that flashed in Sarmade's eyes before fires of wrath filled them. Feeling her anger burning in my very blood, fear washed over me and my fae form flickered from existence in the glade.
I coalesced again at the edge of the woods, silently this time instead of with the fanfair of golden fireworks. Running out I ducked behind a the couch and motioned Shayndel over to warn her about Sarmade's decree. |
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| And the survey says... |
[May. 28th, 2003|01:01 pm] |
So I'm going to hop on the bandwagon and see what everyone says about me on this.
My real (aka full) name:
Where did we meet:
How long have you known me:
How well do you know me:
Do I smoke:
When you 1st saw me what did you think:
My hair & eye color:
What's one of my favourite things to do:
One of the first things I said to you:
What's my favourite type of music:
What's my best physical feature:
Where is my favourite place:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Would you say I'm funny:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Any special talents I have:
Would you consider me a friend:
Have you ever seen me cry:
A good nickname for me would be:
Am I in love, and with who:
Have I ever been hospitalized and what for:
Have I ever had a crush on you:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
Say anything to me here: |
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| Thoughts |
[May. 24th, 2003|03:14 pm] |
Today was Count Golack and Baroness Annika's wedding. We just got invited on Wednesday but still managed to make it over to the County of Life's Wheel. The wedding was breathtakingly beautiful. I would like to be able to describe it better... but I just can't think of a way to describe such marvel via words.
Being at the wedding reminded me that only a couple months ago I was planning my own... But that's over now. It was an interesting time in my life... I really thought I was in love. On the surface, it was beautiful and wondrous, but underneath it was built on lies... rotting and corrupt. Truly I wished to die after finally looking beneath the glossy veneer. I wonder if he ever truly loved me or was just in love with love itself... It's easier thinking he actually cared, that I wasn't just another number in a long list, but I guess I'll never really know... Someday I'd like to find out. Magic can do anything they say... I'm a bit afraid what I might discover though. I think if Lucas hadn't found me when he did that I never would have been able to open my heart again. The pain would have been too much to risk. I think of the person I would have become... bitter, wretched, and self loathing... and cringe.
*sighs* I realize this is getting to mushy and personal for an online public journal so I'll end here. I just want to thank all my friends again for helping me through things a couple months ago... especially Lucas. |
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| Pop Quiz Time! |
[May. 23rd, 2003|03:45 pm] |
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'3" (I'm still growing)
HAIR COLOR: Blonde
EYE COLOR: Blue with gold flecks
PIERCINGS: ears and tongue
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: I'm wearing a yellow skirt
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Evanescence - Bring Me to Life
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Metal from the tongue ring
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold and drizzly
HOW ARE YOU?: Fine and dandy
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: No
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Yeah...
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Yes. I'm adorable and nice, of course we get along
LIKE TO DRIVE?: Yes, I'm an excellent driver... (any RainMan comments and you die)
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Simpons is good but I don't watch much
SHAMPOO: Sheer Blonde (brings out my highlights)
CONDITIONER: Ditto
BOOK: Harry Potter, all of them.
MAGAZINE: The Skymall on the plane cause it means I'm on a plane. WOOT!
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Orange juice
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: travel, explore, get lost then unlost
BAND OR GROUP: Evanescence
HANGOUT: the glade. I'm the supreme royal dictator
DOG BREED: Dalmation like from 101 Dalmations.
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: I prefer to think of it as bending the law
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: Once... let's not talk about it
STAYED UP TILL FOUR ON THE PHONE: No. I don't like the phone much. I prefer to talk in person.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: All the time. I'm a pro
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: *blushes*
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: No
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: No
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: No. He got me one of my own since I got lost so often and needed cab money or had to have the police take me home.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: Yes, but it was Jenny's fault.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: No.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: No... I'm shy... too many strangers in the audience
CRIED IN PUBLIC: Yes...
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes.
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: I prefer to think of him as a soulmate
GIRLFRIEND: No. Ewww.
CURRENT CRUSH: *leans over and kisses him* It's more serious than a crush, thank you.
BEEN IN LOVE?: Yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: Yes... that hurt... a lot... why is truth so painful...
TOO SHY?: Until I know people well... yes, very much so
BEEN HURT?: yeah...
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: Not finding Lucas a month earlier...
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: Yes
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: Yes, I'm a knight
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Ashlings new CD
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I don't plan that far in advance about something so trivial
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: Go new places, learn new things, explore, spend time with friends, kiss and be kissed...
HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: Of old age a long long long time from now.
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: Half and hour ago.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER? I don't remember.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: A couple minutes ago thanks to lj comments
THING YOU PURCHASED: Lucas' anniversary present that I gave him Tuesday
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: I don't watch TV so much
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Matrix Reloaded.
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: I terribly, horribly wrong.
TEENAGE SMOKING: Smoking's bad for anyone regardless of age.
SPICE GIRLS: *twitch*
PREMARITAL SEX: I was raised not to believe in it... but have since been instilled with a different set of morals
DREAMS: FANTASTIC! |
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| I'm a lemming pooka!! |
[May. 23rd, 2003|02:52 pm] |
My name is... Calliope Stephana Winthrop (Alexander)
I want ... all my friends and family to be safe with all this fighting going on.
I have... the best boyfriend ever, the best friends a girl could ever wish for, the most beautiful mother in existence, and a djinni that is a pain in my butt.
I wish ... with perfect friends, family, and boyfriend what do I have left to wish for?
I crave ... sushi a minute ago, but I woke up and found it next to me on the bedside table so I don't crave it anymore. [Thanks Lucas, mwa!].
I regret ... letting myself trust people too easily.
I love ... (1) Lucas, (2) my family, (3) my friends.
I hate ... no one. I feel pity for a lot of people for losing their good sides. I'd like to help them find them again...
I see ... the opportunity for the perfect future stretching out before me when I close my eyes... (Celeste Susannah Leigh Alexander and her two brothers, right Lucas?) Now I just have to avoid the obstacles people keep throwing in my path.
I hear ... the beautiful melody of mine and Lucas' songbirds tunes merging together to create the most majestic music ever.
I search ... for the next adventure, for the tiny ribbon of a new trod leading off from one I already know, for new places to visit
xxWHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOUxx
Smiled? I'm smiling right now
Laughed? a minute or two ago
Cried? A half hour ago...
Bought something? Hmmm... I don't remember. I haven't used the magic money card in a while. Probably Monday when I picked up Lucas' anniversary present.
Danced? At the redcaps' club in NYC last weekend
Were sarcastic? earlier today
Kissed someone? *walks over and kisses Lucas while he's sleeping* 2 seconds ago
Talked to an ex? *frowns* Unless he talks in his sleep I don't see it happening... well, that and I'm not allowed to visit him.
Watched your favorite movie? It's been a while. Anyone wanna do a movie marathon with Lucas and I tonight?
Had a nightmare? Last night... after talking about bad stuff with Lucas and Hooligan
Last book you read: I'm working on Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. The new Harry Potter book is coming out soon and I'm working on re-reading all the old ones. I'm also reading The Art of Five Rings cause George says it's a good knight training book
Last Movie you saw: Matrix Reloaded
Last movie you saw on the big screen: Matrix Reloaded
Last phone number you called: Mom's house to see who Hooligan had called.
Last song you heard: Pandora by Splashdown
Last thing you had to drink: Water
Last time you showered: a couple hours ago
xxDO YOUxx
1. Smoke? No. I'm curious about everything, but smoking gives you the cancer... so I think I'll pass on it.
2. Do drugs? No
3. Have sex? I refuse to talk about my love life online.
4. Sleep with stuffed animals? Yes. Lots of them, most of which are Disney characters.
6. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No, I have a soulmate. It's much better.
7. Have a dream that keeps coming back? No.
8. Play an instrument? Lucas is teaching me guitar
9. Believe there is life on other planets? Yes. The universe is too big for ours to be the only planet with life. And that'd just be depressing, all that space without new people to visit somewhere out there.
10. Remember your first love? I don't have to remember, he's with me now.
11. Still love him/her? Of course.
12. Read the newspaper? occasionally
13. Have any gay or lesbian friends? I'm not sure but from what I hear them talk about, I think so.
14. Believe in miracles? Yes and magic and lots of other things.
15. Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes.
16. Consider yourself tolerant of others? Yes.
17. Consider police a friend or foe? Foe right now. I ran away from home and if they find me... they'll send me back
18. Like the taste of alcohol? Some of them are good like Godiva and Absinthe. Some of them taste like burning...
19. Have a favorite Stooge? A favorite what?
20. Believe in Astrology? Somewhat. I like to read the horoscopes the day after to see if they were right.
21. Believe in magic? Duh!
22. Believe in God? I believe in a higher power, not necessarily God.
23. Pray? Not often..
24. Go to church? Now Mom makes me go. I didn't used to go. Dad didn't care about religion so much.
26. Have any pets? *pouts* No. Lucas has Roxy and the fish I got him and I don't have a pet. Well, Sarm, but she's sooooo not a pet.
27. Do well in school? I did well in the subjects I liked...
28. Go to or plan to go to college: I'm not sure. It was never an option before. My dad was gonna send me to Harvard law since that's where everyone in the family went. My birth mother went the Julliard as a voice student, but she hasn't been in my family for real for 11 years.
29. Have a degree? No... I'm 12...
30. Talk to strangers who instant message you? No.
31. Wear hats? Only on Easter Sunday and that one time Dad took me to the Kentucky Derby.
32. Have any piercings? Ear, tongue.
33. Have any tattoos? Yes.
34. Hate yourself? Sometimes when I mess up a whole lot I do...
35. Have a horny spot? *blinks* As I said before, no love life talk online.
36. Get horny easy? refer to my answer to question 35.
37. Have a best friend? Yuppers. Jimmy the GREAT!!
38. Wish on stars? On shooting stars, that's what you're supposed to do.
39. Like your handwriting? Yes. Aunt Martha made me practice till it was pretty
40. Have any bad habits? Yes. I'm working on fixing them.
41. Care about looks? Personality is far more important.
42. Believe in witches? Yes. Without them Halloween would be dull.
43. Believe in Satan? I don't believe in complete good or evil, so no.
44. Believe in ghosts? Yes, I wanna visit a real haunted house sometime.
45. Believe in Santa? Of course, I'm planning the trip to his workshop as we speak.
46. Believe in the Easter Bunny? Yes, tracking him down to visit too.
47. Believe in the Tooth Fairy? Sure. She's worthy of a visit also.
48. Have a second family? Yes.
49. Trust others easily? Yeah... it's one of my downfalls. I have a hard time believing that anyone could intentionally want to hurt me and tend to trust everyone.
50. Take walks in the rain? *blushes* Yes. The last one was marvelous.
51. Kiss with your eyes closed? Yes, although I really like looking into his eyes when we kiss too.
53. Sing in the shower? Yes... I'm sorry for anyone with damaged eardrums as a result. |
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| Another lemming off the cliff |
[May. 23rd, 2003|02:08 pm] |
--------------HAVE YOU EVER--------------
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: No
* Been in a car accident: No
* Been hurt emotionally: Yes...
* Kept a secret from everyone: No.
* Had an imaginary friend: No. Elsie is real.
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yes.
* Cried during a Movie: Yes.
* Had a crush on a teacher: Ew.. No.
* Ever thought an animated character was hot: *blushes* Yes.
* Cut your own hair: No.
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* Shampoo: Sheer Blonde. It makes my hair prettier.
* Day/Night: Both
* Summer/Winter: Summer
* Lace or satin: Satin, definitely
* Cartoon Characters: Princess Aurora
* Food: I'm in the mood for sushi
* Fave Film: Sleeping Beauty, Everafter, The Princess Bride
* Fave Song: Evanescence - Bring Me to Life
* Fave Subjects: Geography (to know new places to explore), English (I like reading stories), Anthropology (to know how other people live and what to act like when I eventually visit)
-------------RIGHT NOW-------------
Sitting at Lucas' laptop, petting Roxy and updaing my online diary so that tall, dark and handsome will have something to read. Contemplating some sort of surprise for him later.
-------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS-------------
* Cried: Yes...
* Worn a skirt: Yes.
* Cleaned your room: No. I haven't seen my room in a couple weeks
* Done laundry: No. I guess I should learn to do that at some point.
* Drove a car: No. No one will rent one to me.
-------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------------
* Yourself: About some things, not about others.
* Friends: I have the best friends ever.
* Santa Claus: Ooooh... I should find the trod to his workshop...
* Tooth Fairy: Sure, everything else seems to exist
* Destiny/Fate: Sorta. I more believe in Forordination. Like your life is one huge choose your own adventure book and that there are certain wonderful endings planned out for you but your choices in life will determine if you find them or not.
-------------AND LIFE-------------
* Who's the loudest out of your friends: Jenny. She has one volume, loud.
* Who's the weirdest out of your friends: Edward... he scares me sometimes
* Who do you go to for advice: Lucas, Jimmy, and Mom
* What do you think about most when you are not online: Lucas
* What's the best feeling in the world: Waking up and finding his arms wrapped around me.
* Worst Feeling in the world: Realizing that I'm a disappointment to someone I care about. |
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| Lemming-tastic |
[May. 23rd, 2003|12:26 pm] |
What's on your bedside table? Lucas' stuff. It takes up all the room. Well, my diary's there too I guess.
What is the geekiest part of your music collection? Schoolhouse rock the multiplication one...
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? I don't raid the fridge at night. I'm on a diet.
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? Everafter
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? Can they make me tall?
Do you have a completely irrational fear? not that I can think of
What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment? chewing my lip, twirling my hair around my finger, looking off to the side or at the ground
Do you ever have to beg? Not really
Are you a pyromaniac? I like fire... I'm not obsessed with it.
Do you have too many love interests? I only have one interest... the rest of the people who supposedly have crushes on me need to get this through thier heads
Do you know anyone famous? Ashling put out a CD. That makes her famous, right?
Describe your bed: Canopy bed with a floral duvet. It looks like something fit for a princess. Thanks, Mom!!
Who should play you in a movie about your life? Me!
Do you know how to play poker? vaguely
What do you carry with you at all times? magic money card and cell phone
How do you drive? excellently... ok so I don't have a liscense but I just know that I can drive well
What do you miss most about being little? The homework was easier... and lots of problems just went over my head and I didn't know they existed.
Are you happy with your given name? Yes.
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? I've got plenty of money. Come up with a better offer. Like disco in Tibet (winks at Jimmy)
What was the last song you were listening to? Thunder by Splashdown
Have you ever been in a play? No... I'm shy around people I don't know and the audience would be full of them.
Who are your best friends? (not in any order) Lucas, Jimmy, Jenny, Devi, Kiki, Johnny, 'Del
Have you ever been in love? Yes, I'm currently in love.
Do you talk a lot? I've found you learn more by listening.
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? About some things.
Have you ever done any illegal drugs? I drank absinthe.. does that count?
Do you think you're cute? Yeah, everyone has finally convinced me of this
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? No, they make me feel sad.
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? Yes.
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends? boyfriend
1. Why the hell *are* you doing this survey, anyway? Lucas insinuated that I should
2. Listening to any music?: Yes, Walk the Walk by Poe
3. Wearing?: Bathrobe. I just got out of the shower.
4.Labels (Freak, Prep, Punk, etc) suck, don't they?: Yes. People shouldn't be categorized
5. Seen any movies lately?: X-2 and Matrix Reloaded. I can't wait for Searching for Nemo
6.Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: He's the most wonderful being in existence...
7. Makeup?: I just got out of the shower, no.
8. Piercing/Tattoos? ears and tongue and that's none of your business
9: Why is the world obsessed with whether Britney's had a boob job or not? They are? I don't keep up with the tabloids.
10. Are you hungry?: Yes. This dieting stuff is hard.
.This.Or.That.
Music/Movie: Both
Popstar/Rockstar: Popstar
Sabbath/Metallica: Who?
Britney/Christina: On Sarm's behalf, I have to choose Christina... 'I'm a Genie in a Bottle"...
Emo/Punk: What?
Nelly/Ja Rule: Neither
Guitar/Decks: Guitar
Burger/Salad: Salad (easy dieting choice... now I just need to learn to like salad"
Overweight/Underweight: If it's one or the other, underweight. It's easier to put on weight than lose it.
Genies/Faries: I've got a djinni and she's mean. Faeries like Absinthe are better
Designer Clothes/anything goes: whichever. I'm not too picky
Sexy/Sweet: sweet
MP3/CD: MP3
Black Eyeliner/Pink lipgloss: coral lipgloss
Mohawk/Jet Blck hair: Jet black hair. ew on the mohawk
You.
1. You catch your bf/gf with someone else. What are you gonna do? Pinch myself to wake up from the terrible nightmare
2. Someone you don't like makes it clear they like you in *that* way. How are you gonna get them to take the hint? Tell them I'm flattered, but the love of my life position has already been filled.
3. You've been sacked. Your reaction? I've got a job? That's news to me.
4.Your best friend gets with the guy/girl you've liked for absolutely ages. Pissed? Are they happy together? If they are I'm happy for them. It's sorta an invalid question. It's not like I'll ever be single ever again or having a crush on someone other than Lucas. |
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| On the Road Again |
[May. 23rd, 2003|11:33 am] |
Hmmm... oddly appropriate song title for an Eshu even if I don't like that song. In any case, Lucas and I went wandering through the trods. We ended up in Philadelphia. It had been a while since I'd traveled down this way, not since Jimmy and I took Jenny to meet Hooligan for Redcap lessons. Hooligan, Jerem, Paul and a couple other people I hadn't met before showed up. Some troll called the police and had them come looking for a bomb, giving a description of Hooligan as the person carrying it. That was odd and eventually blew over. Jerem was acting all odd, bitter, and Jerem-ish. Lucas and Paul kept lecturing me on how I shouldn't be on a diet. *pouts* Easy for them to say. They're not getting too fat for their favorite jeans. They're getting too short too. Maybe I'll got on a diet and cut them off to make shorts.
I talked to Hooligan a bit. I hadn't seen him since that time with Jenny. I'm supposed to relay a special message to Doyle from him. He, Lucas, and I talked for a bit. He wanted us to keep quiet about what we talked about but expressed this more as a threat to us if we said anything.... *blushes* Lucas didn't flinch at all and told him that if he ever threatened me again he'd be lucky if he lived to regret it. It was really exciting to see him stand up to Hooligan like that for me.
Oh, a wonderful thing happened yesterday. I got one of those nifty title things to add to the end of my name. Count Golack dubbed me the "Bringer of Smiles" *grins* Now I've just got to be sure to live up to my title. |
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| Being a lemming |
[May. 22nd, 2003|11:43 am] |
Well, Lucas darling. You said you wanted to see how everyone else turned out on these, so I'm being a lemming and doing it too.
1. [Spell your name backwards]: Epoillac
2. [Where do you live?]: Ummm... I technically reside in Colorado Springs. I live in Birmingham, New York, Connecticut, California, Florida... basically wherever Lucas and I decide to go at the moment. We're Eshu... tying us down is pretty much impossible.
3. [Describe yourself in three words]: Little miss sunshine
4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: *scratches her head* I don't have enemies. Just people who don't like me yet.
5. [If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?]: That gold fish from Fantasia... I don't know why but for some reason it really intrigues me
6. [What is the latest you've ever stayed up?]: 8am... that was the night I discovered coffee [don't say a word, Lucas]. I was trying to avoid nightmares...
7. [Ever been to Belgium?]: Not yet. Ashra invited me over though...
8. [What's your favorite coin?]: This Japanese one Dad brought me back from a business trip. It's got a hole in the middle. You give it to a person to wish them good luck on a trip. It's the perfect coin for an Eshu.
DESCRIBE YOUR
9. [Wallet]: Tall, dark, and handsome... oh wait, that's Lucas not my wallet.... ummm... my wallet is tan leather
10. [Brush]: White with gold bristles and white caps at the end.
11. [Toothbrush]: Yellow
12. [Jewelry worn daily]: *grins* A gold friendship ring with the heart facing me to indicate I'm with someone I love. A promise ring from Lucas that he carved from glass. All the colors of the rainbow swirl inside it when the light hits it right. A gorgeous platinum necklace that Lucas gave me as an anniversary present and soon to be a locket with picture of both of us to put on the chain.
13. [Pillow cover]: *blushes* The Princess one from the Disney Store bedding collection
14. [Blanket]: A white background with thousands of multicovered flowers all over it. It's like sleeping curled up under a field of wildflowers.
15. [Coffee cup]: I stopped drinking coffee after that one time I had way too much. Sometimes I take a sip from Lucas'.
16. [Sunglasses]: Gold frames with white-ish lenses that have a gold sheen
17. [Underwear]: We are *soo* not discussing my underwear. Too many people seem to be interested in it lately.
18. [Shoes]: More than I can count. I like to go barefoot a lot of the time though
19. [Handbag]: I usually don't carry one unless I'm going somewhere fancy and then it matches my outfit.
20. [Favorite top]: The one of Princess Aurora that Lucas bought me at the Disney store
21. [Favorite pants]: This pair of jeans I've had for a long time. They're broken in perfectly and are sooo comfortable. They're starting not to fit though. I should go on a diet so they'll fit me longer.
22. [Cologne/Perfume]: Happy by Clinique
23. [CD in stereo right now]: "Thoughts From My Mind" the CD Ashling made. She gave me a signed copy. She and Lucas are going to teach me how to sing well like them.
24. [Tattoos]: Umm... let's not talk about that on a public livejournal...
25. [Piercings]: Ears, tongue. *grins*
26. [Wearing]: Yellow, orange, and white striped tank top and matching underwear... what? It's what I slept in and I just woke up.
27. [Hair]: Blonde, the golden, honey shade
28. [Makeup]: Coral lipgloss. Nothing else unless I'm going out somewhere special.
WHAT/WHO (is/are)
29. [In my mouth]: my new tongue ring1!
30. [In my head]: Millions of ideas
31. [Wishing]: ...that my love will come.... and find me (echos, and find me) ... today. Sorry, that's a song from Snow White and was the first thing that popped in my head. Ummm... for real, I wish that all this fighting would stop... it worries me that someone I love will get hurt.
32. [After this]: Going to get even with Lucas for waking me up
33. [Talking to]: Roxy, Lucas' beautiful kitten
34. [Eating]: Nothing right now...
35. [Do you like candles]: Yes. I love candlelight a lot more than electric lighting.
36. [Do you like hot wax]: *looks confused* no opinion to offer on this. I like playing with candle wax once they've burned...
37. [Do you like incense]: Yes. Especially the kind that smells like the ocean. I love the ocean. I wanna live next to it when I grow up...
38. [Do you like the taste of blood]: Ewww... I'm not a vampire... gross.
39. [Fetishes]: ??? What? I don't think I have these.
40. [If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason]: I don't think I could ever bring myself to hurt anyone, even if they hurt me first...
41. [Person you wish you could be with right now]: *grins* Lucas
42. [What/Who is next to you]: tall, dark and handsome
43. [What do you want done with your body when you die]: I'm still to young to worry about that. Alhtough I hear that they can shoot your ashes into the sun... that would be sorta fun. Let my ashes explore the sun...
44. [Do you believe in love]: YES!!
45. [Do you believe in soulmates]: Yes, and I found mine... he's sleeping beside me right now.
46. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: I believe love can spark at first sight, but true love must build over time into a burning blaze.
47. [Do you believe in Heaven]: *smiles* Yes and I found it already.
48. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: Yes, if someone works heard enough they can be redeemed for anything.
49. [Do you believe in God]: I believe in Fate/Destiny more than the whole Divine creator. Although the stories about it are great.
50. [What's something that you wish people would understand]: That just because I don't do exactly what they tell me, that I still care for them. I'm my own person and can make decisions on my own instead of being spoonfed someone else's.
51. [What's something you wish you could understand better]: I used to want to understand why people could even want to hurt each other... but I've decided that I really don't want to understand that type of thinking.
52. [What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: That all this crazy talk of war and the Stag King would end and everyone could get along... but I realize that's just wishful thinking. |
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| Hopping on the Bandwagon |
[May. 21st, 2003|04:29 pm] |
Well, since it looks like the in thing to do, I guess I'll start on of these online journals also. Especially since tall, dark, and handsome has been picking on me about it.
What's new in the land of Calli...? Well, *smiles* yesterday was Lucas and my 5 week anniversary. It seems like only yesterday that I met him... Time flies when you're having fun I suppose. I found the perfect present for our anniversary, a perfect, sparkling, gold and silver rose. It's stem and leaves were made of dark jade with petals carved from platinum and gold. The entire flower was covered in diamond dust so that it sparkled in the light. I'd thought of it as a way for us to enter the glade together, a flower growing large with silver (Lucas) and golden (me) petals blooming to reveal us inside... I gave him the gift last night... he loved it.
Things with Raxsin are getting difficult. He disapproves of Lucas and I having sworn True Hearts to each other. I don't see how something that could make me so marvelously happy could upset my friends...
On a brighter note, the upcoming schedule is looking fun. Lucas and I are going to Oakthorpe next week. We get to ride in an airship and visit the Fae village that's there. We're also going on a double date with Johnny and Ella. That should be fun. We also just got invited to Count Golack's wedding three days from now. I need to get cracking on a present to give him. We also need to go see Dismas soon. Things in her barony are hard right now, and talking to her the other day I got the impression she'd really like company. We're also supposed to be going to Brazil with Tara sometime soon. *smiles* I love traveling the world. After meeting tall, dark, and handsome, I seem to be seeing a lot more of it than ever before...
I hope that we get to see Mom soon. It's been over a week and I haven't seen her to tell her that Lucas and I swore True Hearts. I hope she takes the news well.... Su seemed worried. Raxsin was furious. Deggy and Aielora and some of the other adults were happy for us... I hope Mom falls into that category. |
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